by Laura | Jul 11, 2019 | Gratitude
LOVE IS WORTH IT
We were 8 months pregnant and not a single person knew. We were entangled in a web of lies we had woven and in an instant, our lives came crashing down. It was June of 1999, it was the first time I ever laid my eyes on her. She was the most beautiful girl I’d ever seen. I remember thinking to myself, “Damn, the guy who gets that girl is the luckiest guy in the world.” For six long months though, I could only admire her from afar. Finally, the semester’s wrapping up and I realized my time was now or never, so I slipped her a note asking for her phone number. As I watched her scribble something back, my heart was literally just beating right out my chest. I could only think of the worst-case scenario. Instead, written there in beautiful handwriting was her phone number. We exchanged many calls that lasted all night through to the early morning, and with a little bit of magic, we began dating. And that was just the beginning of our journey together. One year later, Emily was eight months pregnant and not a single person knew. It was her best-kept secret but also the worst kind to have. Emily was small and wore big sweaters to cover up the bump. We were young, naive and clueless teenagers. We had some of the toughest conversations of our lives during this period. It didn’t get any easier from there though. We made the very difficult decision to put our unborn son up for adoption. We had several meetings with the local adoption agency, meetings where we sifted through, profiles of potential parents. A couple of strangers would be reaping the rewards of our unplanned pregnancy. They would be happy parents and we would not be parents. At 19, a part of me felt light, relieved from the pressures and responsibilities, but the other part of me felt very heavy. I was weighed down by these deep senses of guilt, shame, and regret. The day came for us to finally sign the adoption papers, but before doing so we met Emily’s doctor for her routine appointment, and what the doctor said next would forever change the course of our future. “Emily, your baby’s too small. You need to stay at the hospital until you give birth.” There is now no choice but to reveal our year-long secret. It was time to tell her parents. And they were not happy, to say the least. Her mom is very traditional East Asian and wanted a dowry in exchange for her daughter. She asked for two goats. Where I was supposed to find two goats? Ultimately, with the love and support of our families, we decided to keep our son. We would be happy parents after all. Sometimes what seems insurmountable at the moment may end up being one of life’s greatest blessings. I’m a testament to that. 17 years ago, I was scared, and I doubted myself every single day because I wasn’t sure if I had what it took to be a good father. And now, I’m so proud to be standing on this stage to be able to share my story with my son who is in attendance tonight. He has no idea how many times he’s pulled me out of the darkest moments of my life with his love and his laughter. I see a part of me in him, and I’m credibly proud of the man he is becoming. Better not be bringing home any baby just yet though. As for my high school sweetheart, there are simply no words for me to describe how much love I have for her. We’ve been together for almost 18 years and now have two more beautiful sons. And even though she’s the last person in the world who’d watch a horror movie with me, she’ll always be the first to laugh at my dad’s jokes. Definitely worth more than two goats. I’ve often heard that to make a relationship work, it needs to be 50/50 but I’ve learned that is absolutely not true. Because love is hard, love is stupid, love is messy, love is blind, love is painful, but in spite of all this, love is still so worth it. Love is when you give 100% and expect zero in return because if Emily and I haven’t given each other everything we had all of these years, those two young teenage parents would’ve never made it here today. Almost two decades ago, remember what I said? The guy who gets that girl is the luckiest man in the world. Who would have ever thought that it would be me?
by Laura | Jul 10, 2019 | Blog
Discover the power of your inner technology and see New York Times best-selling author, Gregg Barden.
So, you can see the practitioners behind. You can see the ultrasound, the sonogram technician. There’s the woman’s tummy. It’s exposed. She obviously is awake. Ok and here is the split screen monitor. On the left side is the snapshot that I was talking about and the blackness is the emptiness of the bladder. The lump is the tumor and the curve is the floor of the bladder. On the right-hand side, now you’re going to see the real-time image of the tumor. Ok, and what I’m inviting you to do now… What you want to do is watch and compare what’s happening on the right side is real time with the before image on the left.
When we see something like this happen, we call it a miracle. It’s only a miracle until we understand what has just happened. Then it becomes a technology. Inner technology. They are feeling the feeling as if she is already healed. They are claiming and creating an energetic pattern of an already healed – fully healed, fully enabled, fully capacitated woman, rather than buying into the illusion of the tumor that she has temporarily at that moment.
by Laura | Jul 1, 2019 | Blog
Hey guys! It is Day 6 on Facebook live. Today is a difficult video for me to make. You know, in these 30 days, we go through so many highs and lows in our life and yesterday, I woke up thinking that I was a certain person, I am Angel, the sister who I thought I was. I went to bed not knowing who I was anymore and I woke up a different but unveiling the truth about myself that was hard to accept but also understand that life is the way it is and I don’t based who I am upon who others are or what my skin cells say, so the last few months, I’ve been studying some ancestry history and learning a little bit about cleansing and healing different things that happened in our life. I went to Scott and Scoar and I remember being a young girl and I remember being left back in school, I remember being so upset and so angry that I talked to God and said to God, if You are real, wake me up at 2 in the morning and I woke up at 2 in the morning, and it kind of freaked me out, I was like, oh goodness, God, You are real. I make another pack , wake me up at 4 in the morning and then I woke up at 4 in the morning and I made a relationship with God and say, I know you will always going to be there, I don’t know if anybody else is, but I know You are and I built this relationship around God and I built this relationship for so many years and it kept me stable and strong. Throughout my life and I decided to do my DNA and I missed doing that, it changed my life It affected me in a way, who I thought I was, is not really who I am, but I then realized I am who I am, regardless of my DNA and I learned how to love people, in spite of whether they are my blood or not, and nothing changes for me. If indeed I have the same blood as somebody or I don’t that I learned how to love unconditionally. I know that everything happens just as it is meant to be and was meant to have all the experiences that I have had. Today, to be who I am and as tough as this video to make and as hurtful I thought it was is as healing as it is, because there are always things about me that I didn’t quite understand, that I understand now. The healing of knowing the truth is always important but also understanding what unconditional love is. Unconditional love is knowing somebody is always going to be there, knowing that you love them, a degree that matters that is beyond a condition. It doesn’t need to have any conditions on it, it’s in spite of somebody hurting you, or somebody lying to you, or somebody doing that is vindictive to you. That’s unconditional. Do you need to continue to put yourself to be hurt by people? No, but can you understand where they are coming from and see it from a distance and be unconditional about it and allow yourself and save space to be able to be there. But when you get to this place of unconditional love, you get this feeling of forgiving them, for they don’t know what they do when you get that feeling, you are brave. Another thing is I also learn that Jesus said the comforters are always with you and that’s what I hold on to, that comforter knowing that is inside of me that I can hold on to that hand. It will help me through anything that I’m going through. Even though this has been a crazy experience for me to acknowledge, and jump into the plane, go pick up the kids, this is going to be short and sweet but on top of it. I just want you to know that you are beautiful, you are loved and learning to be who you are not related to other people. I am Angel, the go-getter. I am Angel, the great mother, those things I can control. Those things that I know I can be in spite of anything else around me, but when I put my conditions in my life that I am, these according to somebody else’s. If they think that I am that way, then I am that way, but I always got this thing that people’s opinion of me is not really my business. I have to be truthful to myself. The opinion matters to that point that I am not hurting or violating another person but on the other hand, I have to be truthful to myself and learning to be authentic in my truth is so important, so as hard for me to share this truth. This is my truth and I want to own my own truth. Thank you for this. This would only be the weird video and the truth of this video is to be authentic on who you are and know who you are in your connected spiritual being, having human experience, your spiritual being is the one that is perfect that comes in that aligned you to all the experiences that you have in this world. Your physical body is just the thing that moves with this spirit inside of you that is able to accomplish things. This stuff changes every few, every cell that is in my body is a new cell. Every year or so. It is okay that this is it that who I really am, but who I really am is that spiritual being that is connected unconditionally to all those people who loved me and to those people who I loved. Thank you for your support and I wish you the most blessed Monday. Day 6. Thank you.
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